5.1.23
- I had a pretty chill weekend. Just a bucnh of lowkey hangouts with freinds. Saturday was a big hit. Got three people to try out longboarding and overall experience was a good joy to witness. Hanging out in Gas works was a pleasant bonding experience. It was good to see Caitlyn out and about and watching Richard skate around with ease + photography.
- I really got to priortize completing that supplemental essay by today. I plan on skating to that new cafe I found and finished it there. It’s open until 6pm. Should be ample time. I think a short one page will suffice.

5.2.23
- Had a super unproductive day yesterday besides the gym. I went home epexcting to go to a new cafe but ended up sleeping for four hours. Completely blew my chances at writing that paper. Need to summon the energy to finish this shit otherwise I won’t be able to pass grad school when I start. It’s not looking good right now. Maybe it’s a blessed I got waitlisted. My worker ethic blows right now. I can’t imagine juggling both school and work right now. It’s a lot.
- Went on a date with Kaitlyn and it was pretty meg. Lots of her talking and it felt like there was no tension there. I am gonna give her a second chance but it’s unlikely she’s going to turn it all around.
- Still can’t believe I fumbled the bag with Lindsey. I actually fucked with her personality so hard. I learned a lot of lessons with her but man only if I didn’t time it wrong.
- I definitely feel less tired today. Let’s do our best to get some action items finished. Let’s make it productive.

5.3.23
- Took today slow. Fell asleep a little too late and my alarms didn’t fully wake me up and had to call a half day. Definitely a wake up call for when I start my therapist job.
- I skimped out on the gym yesterday to play some league. You are what you do and my actions don’t reflect that.
- However, I did feel good about the fact that I wrote a really good letter to the school. It might be the tipping stone to get into the program but we will have to wait and see how that goes. For now let’s focus on summer.

5.4.23

- Definitely need to improve my night routine. I ended up sleeping at 12;30am. That’s insane for waking up at 6:30am. I problably got like less than 6 hours of sleep on a work out day. Definitely need to reframe when I goto bed. Being in my room by 10pm is the biggest goal I have to accomplish in the next couplkle weeks. Until the end of the school year.
- I got really gassed out during my workout yesterday. I can feel myself getting better over time. Progress

5.5.23
- Went to my room early but deciding to toke up was dumb. It kept me up for another hour and it made me go to bed later than midnight. I definitely need to have a more structured night routine. I can’t have the mentality going to work 11 min late everyday. It’s been nice just relaccing at home but investing into my photography is always going to be a net positive effort.

5.8.23
- Again, thankful for this job letting me hournal and catch up mentally. Key things about my weekend. I did a photoshoot with Alejandra. She said she wasn’t photogratic but she has definitely pulled some good looks. Hopefully she enjoys the photos I took of her when I’m done with them.
- Playing through Resident Evil 4 has been such a job. I really enjoy the fights with Krauser. Even though I cheesed him with a one shot RPG it was fun deflecting his attacks and watching how he fights. I gotta took into this history.
- Honestly wasn’t too attracted to Kaitlyn but she sort of won me over through text. She was very reasonable and accomadating when I flaked on her. Shes

s clearly interested. Maybe she will win me over instead of that really stale conversation we had early.. Hopefully this time it’s different.
- Just raelized I had a four hour training at Harrison prep. Thanks to Ms. Cruz for reminding me. I abosulately cannot be late otherwise I have to do an in-person 16 hour training what I want to avoid doing.
- I want to longboard to the gym but I have to be quick about changing into my gym cloes as well as a fast session.
0 I think to destressm I am opting to do it after the training. Last thing I want is showing up late and having to take the 16 hour course.
- Honestly I’ve been loving Resident Evil 4 so far. The gameplay is top noght and I love how the game challenges you to use different types of ammo.

5.9.23

Yesterday, I had a good time hanging out at the training connecting with everyone but it got spoiled by losing two ranked games with Danny. I have to do better about managing my time. I really wanna focus on beating Resident evil 4. I’m so close to beating it and it’s been so fun so far.
- I really need to put a policy to not toke up later than 10pm. It really bleeds into my attempt to sleep and I really need those extra time to rest.
- I had to skip the gym because I pust it back so far into the night. I guess I was in a rotten mood because I gave up once the open bench was taken. After my tattoo heals, I have to be way more dillegent leading into the summer. I want to improve my body for korea.
- I can’t be late to work tomorrow. I have to be very intential about going to bed early. I owe it to my team.
i It was s o cool seeing people react to y longboard. Mr. Swortz was really inerested in them and has longboarding experience. I;ll definitely take him out on a run during the summer. Fort Steilacoom Park would be the best place for him to go and try it out.

- Really excited for my tatto piece tomorrow. I know it’s going to be painful but it’s gonna look so good complimenting my other tattoos. It’s going to be a lot of fun.
- It’s cool to see my weight drop. Being mindful of what I eat really cycles out the trash I was used to eating. Summer is going to be a blast and I can really focus on bringing my body into top shape again.
- After my tattoos heal, I plan to focus on creating a reoutine of going to the gym right after work. It has worked wonderfully in the past and it keeps me consistent. I know if I go home theres a huge chance of me skiing it all together. The patter always rings true.

5.10.23
- Had the best sleep in a long time. I had some pretty intense dreams. There was a moment when I felt one with the world. There was another one where I was seeing this girl and it was comorting knowing someone was with me.
- Today is no-league wednesday which is perfect because I’m getting a sizable tattoo today. I’m nerous about the pain but I’ve gotten through worse before.

Mom is upset about the sent back retirement papers and how there is misplaces signatures. I think I can resolve it by putting in an electronic signature. Hopefully this works out. Losing retirement money is a huge lose.
- Resident evil 4 was such a fun game. The boss fights were satisfying and the enemeies were fun to kill. The animations were top notch. Blasting through enemies with a showfun fels so good. Such a complete package of a game. First game I beat in the new year. I hope they create and more games in the future. What a fantastic story, Ashley > Ada.

I’m pretty excited about my tattoo later today. One step closer to finishing my entire arm. I’m super excited for my snake tattoo on my right arm. It’ll be the most expensive tattoo I’ve ever gotten on my body and I’m all for it. Not looking forward to the pain but it’s part of the process.

- Mr. Swortz in down to go skating. It’s cool to see that he is interested on riding on e-skates.

5.12.23
- I can’t believe I sat through a 91/2 hour tattoo session. Literally been stabbed for so long. April is such a trooper for sitting with me the entire time. The end results is really pretty. I can’t wait to see what it looks like when it’s fully healed. But man, the pain and swelling I felt afterwards was so intense. It was a searing pain. I had to take 500mg of pain pills to be able to sleep again.
- I feel so dumb missing my dental appointments. I was so focused on my tattoo that it completely lapsed my mind.
- I think to improve readability i’ll include gaps between dashes to make it easier to read. Plus I have so many pages left. It should be fine to adopt this change.
- I went into the tattoo shop expecting a $600~ tattoo and walked out paying $1000 more. I seriously fucked up there so I can’t be buying no more stupid shit until end of June. I’m happy with what I have and should coast.
- As much as I dread it. I am going to add together all the CC debt I have and see how I am doing so far.
- Debating if I should go to Lisa’s thing on Saturday. I really shouldn’t be out in the sun anyways and it’s a long ass drive. There’s a lot of home chores I need to catch up on anyways. If I can get all the board related things in order then I will be down for this trip. Longboarding is cheap.

5.15.23
- Saturday was such a chill day. The trail we took was really well paved and it was the perfect temperature. It was shaded for most of the trail and it was so fun navigating through the area. The new wheels I put in feels great and carving is really fun. It was just me and Kobaine zipping through people but it was a nice chill ride overall. My drunk ass left my backpack behind and ended up being thirsty the entire trip. The quesadilla I had at the Mexican spot was delicious and was the perfect pit stop.

- Giving Mom $1,000 put me in a big hole but I know she needs it more than I do. Thankfully, I have some gigs coming up that’lll help pay some of the debt off. But I have to be serious about spending less.

- My dating with Kaitlyn went well surprisingly. After moving away from talking about work she’s actually fun to talk to. It’s good that she plays videogames too. We bonded over stardew valley. Turns out she used to be a 4am at night hardcore gamer. It’s a shame that I still think about Lindsey but I’ll passively go slow w/ Kaitlyn and see how it goes over time with her. So far it’s going well.

- The healing process on my tattoo has been hard to cope with. I have limited mobility and it hurts to move my arm. I can’t swim with it and I can’t let it be exposed to the sun. I guess it’s the price to pay to tattoo one of the most used joints on my body. It’s a lovely design and I’m so happy this art is painted on my arm. It completes the aesthetic of the neo-traditional style so well.

5.16.23
- Had a long session playing Civilization 6. It’s fun watching my cities thrive and spreading the gay everywhere. But I did hit a point where I felt unsatisfied around 7pm where I played for four hours straight. I miss the feeling of accomplishment of going to the gym + uploading on my photograpgy page. It feels good tackling the long term investmenets and watching hte progress unfold.

- It’s been a whole month after coming home from the Philippines and I haven’t worked on processing on the trip. I have to fall back in love with photography and get back into it. I still have so much to show the world.

- My tattoo is finally peeling and making progress to a full recovery. I just want to be able to move my arm freely again. Also it’d be so sick to show off the art that my whole back of my arm displays. I think it’s dope how it prtetty much wraps all around my arm, it was way more expensive than expected but money is temporary and tattoos are forever. Excited to see it when it’s fully healed.

5.17.23
- I had the opportunity to come in early today but decided to sleep in. Madde Ms. Cruz pretty upset. I need to make sure to come in on time for the respect of time. It’s honestly a bad habit I need to work on.

- The longboard run I had with Reddit dude was really fun. I am getting better at carving at higher speeds. Also first time going through 5 mile drive with my new longboard. Loving the red accent with the red helmet. Such a cool combo.

- CHecking in. It feels good to have my rhythm with work and life again. Once I add working out into the mix then I’ll be building a great foundation to go back to school next year. There’s probably a very little chance I’ll get into UPS through the waitlist. My only other window is prusing grad school through online means. I’ll be missing out on making new friends but I already have a huge set of friends so it’ll be okay.

- Today is my no-league day. A chance to catch up on things I’ve been neglecting. I’ve been meaning on working on my photography page and jumpstarting the IG wall to completion. I’m only halfway fone right now. I haven’t pursued photography wwith hunger like I did last year. But the effort has paid off with all the gigs coming in.

- Definitely during the summer, I’ll carve up some time to really invest in upgrading everything. There’s so much to do.

- I have to make a conscious effort to not spend money on frivolous things. I’m so behind on my finances that if I want to have a good time in Koream I have to zero out my CC debt and start building up my savings. I can’t be playing catch up each paycheck to pay off my CC debt. I have to hone my financial intentions.

5.18.23
- I honestly need to work on self-disipline. I made an exception to playing League for Danny’s last day and I ended up playing four in total. A day dedicated to stay away from my #1 time waster source and I ended up spending 2+ hours on it. It’s honestly embrassassing. This needs to get under control especially with graduate school looming around the corner.

- I enjoyed the process of uploading to IG. It’s fun crafting the photo to my liking and building towards a complete page . I think I have to sit through and make some changes to the layout to make it more clean but I’m happy to get it going. I just have to update it with more recent photos from this year.

- Tattoo is starting to peel in larger clumps. Honestly can’t wait for it to be fully healed and I can wear long sleeves again.
- Jacob is coming up this weekend! I haven’t seen him in ages. It’ll be a good time hanging out with him :)

- 4 day weekend next week. Definitely gotta invest some time planning what to do for those four days. Lowkey want to go visit North Cascades National park. Definitely haveto plan something that’s cheap or free. Need to save up.

5.19.23
- Had a fantastic ride with Swortz through Ft. Steilacoom Park and Sunnyside. For a first time rider he did awesome! It was nice to hear his perspective about the area. I found a new way to get into the grafitti put. You basically have to cut through steilacoom high school to get into it. Defniitely want to take him out to check out other trails.

- I got a huge influx of cash coming in at the end of the month. I’ll be getting 10,000 in my bank account. I think that’ll be the largest amount of money I ever had in my account. It will all be going to debt but I’m slowly getting my financial health back to normal.

- My tattoo is 50% shredded. It’s so terribly itchy. I hate it. But the exposed skin looks really good. It’s going to look so good when it’s completely done peeling. Once it’s done I can finally return to the gym and lifting again.

- I’ve been losing a lot of weight but I’m afraid I have been losing muscle mass as well. hopefully by coming back I can start building the muscles I lost. But over the summer, I am definitely going to seriously invest. It’s going to be an awesome process. I can feel it.

5.22.23
- I made a dumb decision by choosing to stay up until 3:00am on a work day. Running on three hours of sleep isn’t exactly healthy. I stayed up watching meaningless youtube videos and got glamed on by teammates on League. Not exactly the best use of time when I could use the sleep.

- Had a really chill weekend! Had events to all three days. Very thankful for my friends. So lucky to have everyone there to kick it with. It was so funny watching Kobaine connect with everyone and seeing drunk Justin/jacob being dumb in the pool. Definitely worth the drive.

- Came over to Wyatt’s to help him get over his breakup. Honestly it wasn’t too bad. Kendru set him down easy. It’s still sucks though, especially your first relationship. Never really get to see him emotional like this but hell get through it. I’m glad we were able to hang out all day on Sunday to get things off his mind. I’m sure he’ll do the same if I were in the same situation.

- I’ve reached a conclusion of just pursuing online school. Kobaine brought up a good point that the social aspect that I was looking for isn’t the priority for people in grad school. I’ve been blessed with a large group of friends. I’d be saving a lot of money on tuition and transportation costs. I don’t think it’s worth waiting a whole year just to reapply for those six spots. Just a redirection.

- Despite my productivity shortcomings, I’ve been support happy lately. I am genuinely stress free most days and I have a lot of free time to pursue my hobbies. photography and longboarding has brought me a lot of joy in the last few years. So thankful for these pursuits.

- All that’s really missing is my love life but I have been single for so long that it honestly doesn’t phase me too hard anymore. The journey of self-improvement has always paid off and it’s a guaranteed positive return. I would like to pursue dating more seriously during the summer.

- I Have a date with Kaitlyn later today. It sucks, I’m not really attracted to her and I’m only keeping this going for the possibility of getting laid. I’m gonna break her heart, just not interested in being in a relationship with her. I still think about lindsay and how hard I dropped the ball on that one. I wish I had that same attraction with Kaitlyn but it’s not there. Let’s just hope she has game to win me over.

- It’s been a while since I’ve had a self-portratit session. I need some updated photos of myself in preparation of hot boy summer. Might invest in Hinge premium for the search of the perfect gal. eHarmony was a huge waste of time. Money down the drain.

- Honestly pretty happy with this job. It pays well, there’s lots of work-life balance. The days are short and the work is relatively easy. It feels nice to work in a community I used to go to school at. ALso living 3 minutes away is such a blessing. Honestly the best “full time” job to have balance with grad school. I’m so ready to level up and finally get a place of my own. I do enjoy the quality of life I have no but eventually down the line, I need to earn my independence and up my dating prospects.

5.23.23
- I had a lot of time to sleep. Barely got 8 hours of sleep. I have to head to bed around the same time again today so I don’t sleep in for Wednesday. I can’t show up 40 minutes late again or else I’ll piss Ms. Cruz again. It’s understandable for her to be upset about that. It’s unfair for her.

- I played some many League games yesterday. Been playing w/ Danny and we are losing so much, I’d have way more fulfilling playing single player games, enjoying the story and the spectacles there. I’ll see if dead space is worth playing.

- There are a ton of photography projects I want to work on. I have to add some “red” photos to my massive powerpoint. Gotta represent my best work. Definitely going to work on Olivia’s pictures today. They ended up looking so good!

- I have to do a better routine of completing the tasks for today. I should set down this book right on my computer desk so I have easy access to all the tasks I need to do for the rest of the day. I’ll be more productive that way.

- Depending on Dead Space and how it goes, I think I’ll pick up Rogue Legacy 2 and try to beat it. I gotta learn to play other gaes than League. That game is so toxic, especially with solo-queueuing. People tilt so easily on that game.

-Jesus. Never pulling a stunt like I did today. As kobaine said, always aim to sleep, every single minute counts. I slept in my car like in three separate times. Honestly such a dumb move. Thankfully my coworkers are accommodating.

5.24.23
- Ended up finishing Olivia’s grad photos. They turned out so good! There’s definitely some highlight photos that I am super proud of. I’m sure Olivia is going to like them.

- I didn’t realize how much my sleep quality was going to be affected by staying up on Sunday night. It has made me so tired all week. Definitely a domino effect because I’ll be having really tired spells during the day that prevents me from being productive.

- Today is my no-league day. I have to follow through with this otherwise this whole routine has been useless and broken. There are lots of tasks that I need to get done.

- for today, I’ll try to get a full 8 hours of sleep. I desperately need all of it. I’m so sleep deprived it’s insane. I’ve been dropping the ball today. Took a nap during lunch break and slept an extra 15 minutes in. I should just sleep in the car next time. I’ll have an extra 6 minutes to sleep.

5.25.23
- Let this be a hard lesson to maintain a good circadium rhythm. It threw off my entire week from one bad decision of staying up watching dumb videos and looking at reddit. Totally wrecked my entire set of mornings and only now that I am recovering.

5.29.23
- This four day break was such a nice taste of summer break. It’s been nice just living life and taking things at a slow pace. I will admit there’s been a lot of staying up and playing League but fuck it, I enjoy it.

- Saturday afternoon was such a perfect day. Longboarding with a group of friends through the city in a huge mob of PEV with everyone enjoying the spectacle. Never would I thought I could be running through so many red lights in downtown Seattle. Even though Wyatt took a fall we caught up with the group. Such a fun time seeing all the different types of PEV’s and the skill of some of the users. People were jumping into sidewalks making micromovements and so much speed into the ride.

-My favorite moment was going down the bridge in Stadium district. The sun was setting, casting this soft blue light across the shiny glass skyline of Seattle. It was one of those moments I’ll always remember, so happy to have gotten into a longboarding hobby and this was the culmination of that. Such a beautiful view <3.

- I’m really happy Wyatt said that it was the funniest thing he did post-break up. He’s going through it but at least he has a good support network. Honestly time went by so fast after we landed in U-district. It was just pure human connection and vibing. It was 12;46 and we didn’t even notice how late it was. Just eating the delicious paneer burger and just enjoying life’s simply pleasures what a lovely experience :)

5.30.23
- Can’t believe June is right around the corner. The year went by so fast it’s crazy. Honestly can’t wait for summerbreak. It’s going to be so fun. Just gotta survivive another three weeks. I know that’s going to go by quick considering most staff wants the same as me anyways.

- I got to start pumping up creatine and getting ready for my workout routine starting from June and onwards. GOtta get the body ready to see Leena in Korea.

- Oh man the reality o not getting enough sleep has definitely caught up to me. I am super tired at the moment so I have to focus on getting 8 hours of sleep otherwise I’m going to be a complete vegetable tomorrow.

_ Ever since renaming our pawns to people we know, my enjoyment of the game has increased tenfold. The foam popper was so clutch to use. Definitely need to build some more. They are so fun to use.

- That 25 minute nap in my car literally saved me. I feel so much more awake now. Definitely got to invest in a small car pillow and blanket for lunch naps.