3.1.23
- I need to take accountability for showing up. When I become a therapist, I can’t ask for off days like today on the whim. I need to be more diligent in how I track my sleep and prepare for the next day. I am lying my ass off for 3 hours of my day. I’m losing trust within my community and it took forever to bring it up to this level. Don’t take advantage of people’s kindness. That’s negative karma being put on you.

3.2.23
- I had a call with Leena. She’s still so cute. She sang a song for me and I miss her personality. She’s so sweet, I can’t wait to visit her.
- Linset ended up stopping things between us and honestly, I could have predicted it. It was nice to get to know her a little but alas I’m back to where I started. The search continues.

3.3.23
- I had a meager gym session. Only 15 minutes. I just went to say I did it and to build momentum. I want to go 5 times a week and incorporate should and abs exercises. It’ll be a longer gym session but it’ll be worth it. Like I said in my blog, having more physical activity in my life, the longer I’ll live and the happier I’ll be. Having a nice body will just be a nice side effect. In my pursuit of good gym habits, I’ll have something to be proud of at the end of the day. I still often think about my missing piece but for now, I’ll fill it with self-enrichment and a copious amount of protein.

3.6.23
- Strangely enough, I actually enjoy working at CP. It’s honestly such a good gig for the workload. It gives me time to reflect on my day. It helps to have good coworkers. I still have nightmares about the Compass old lady. God, she was the worst.

3.7.23
- I slept for 10 hours today but am still feeling awfully tired. Pulling all-nighters is never good. Definitely need to keep a normal sleep schedule. I can’t provide quality therapy if I find myself so tired. I can’t keep my eyes open. I’ll allow myself grace this time but I can’t let this affect my career.

3.8.23
- The league addiction is setting in. I’ve been playing for hours each day after school. This is not going to cut it when I’m in grad school. I won’t have much free time once I start. I guess now is the best time to indult in this past time before my lifestyle denies that part of me. Learning about mental health will provide me with much more fulfillment in life.
- My plan is to head to Lander Cafe to iron out most of the preparations for tomorrow’s group interview. I really have to make a good impression if I want a good shot at getting into the program. I know I’ll excel in that environment.

3.9.23
- My admission interview went really well! The preparation beforehand really made the difference. I was able to answer all the prompts intelligently and was able to provide confident answers. I have a really good feeling that I am able to get into the school. Now, I gotta get some scholarships to be able to afford it. I’m so pumped for this new chapter of my life :)

3.10.23
- I’ve been feeling unfulfilling playing League recently. Especially when I know there are other tasks I can work on that would be a better use of time.
- I really have to reconsider going to the gym at 10. Once I finish I am only getting a maximum of 7 hours of sleep and even that isn’t enough. I can barely get through math class without dosing off, it’s awful. Need to be in bed by 10:40 by the absolute latest.

3.13.23
- I just wanted to highlight my dissatisfaction with League. It’s so high stakes and a toxic environment. I always find a way back but I have to reinvest my energy into editing and updating my website. There will be more positive outcomes that way. It’s a way of living.
- My date with Hayli went well but I had to convince myself that I was attracted to her. I do enjoy that she has dark humor and lives very close to me which is a big plus

3.14.23
- Just like I predicted I feel a lot better on the days I work out. The sense of progress feels so good. I can feel my own clothes getting tighter around the arms. I am probably the strongest iteration of myself my whole life. I gotta keep this momentum going.
- I went on a second outing with Hayli. Took me another try to see if I liked her and unfortunately, I didn’t. She seems too childlike for me and I have a hard time looking at her face. She does have nice legs and hair but it’s not enough to justify pursuing a relationship with her. I honestly might pursue a FWB but that’s it.
- Another thing I need to highlight is using Reddit before bed. I waste precious sleep feeding myself with relevant content. Need to focus on my rest from now on. It’s the only time my body rebuilds.

3.15.23
- Just another reminder, that those late-night League sessions and mindless scrolling at night are just taking away much-needed sleep time. Ideally, I should at least get 7.5 hours of sleep which means I should be “lights off and attempting to sleep” by 10:30 pm. Any time after 11:00 pm is just irresponsible. I definitely need the rest, especially on days that I work out hard on.

3.16.23
- Today is SZA day! It’s going to be my first concert in a long time and the opener is actually someone I’m excited about. Omar apollo! It’s going to be extra hype since I’m going with four of my good friends. It’s going to be such a fun time.
- There is a party on Friday but I might have to pass it to get everything ready for Saturday’s wedding. I need the extra time to wake up early to pick up Daniel and get everything in order. That’s a sacrifice I’m willing to make.

3.20.23
- The big wedding was a huge success. There were so many cool moments that I was able to execute. Daniel was a huge help and he did an awesome job. Now that I have a huge editing job ahead of me that’s okay, I look forward to tackling it.
- While hanging out at Metier, I went up to this pretty white girl to talk to her and she blew me off. Her friend came in clutch and came back into the bar to hand her my number, Brother K’sante had my back for sure. She’s so pretty. I couldn’t take my eyes off of her. She’s been texting me now so let’s see how it ends up.
- Besides the editing, there’s not much going on. I get to just coast until I leave for the Philippines. Time to settle down and relax for a bit.

3.21.23
- I landed a date with Lindset on Saturday. She looks really young for her age apparently. She’s 29. She still can’t believe she’s meeting up with me. She’s so pretty with her doe-like eyes and her blond hair. It was so funny catching her off guard outside. Truly blessed for her friend coming back into the bar. Excited to see what comes out of this. I’m already more hype than that chick Hayli. Good riddance.
- I only have 8 days to finish the wedding photos, it’s up to me to sit down and get as much done each day. Since I’m still recovering from my sickness, I have an extra hour each day to make progress and deliver a good product.

3.22.23
- The naps in the afternoon are so alluring but I already know it’s going to evolve into a full-on sleep mode if I commit. Whenever I draw away from my gym routine, I always want to go back. Feeling like I’m going to the bigger the next day makes me look forward to my progress.
- I’m still excited about my date on Saturday. She was so cute across the table and not having another reference besides that adds to the allure. She seems really chill over text and she plays videogames too. Can’t wait to dig into that.
- Wedding photos have been initially culled. Going to cull it even more. There’s no way I’m processing 1,100 photos. That’s too big of a job.

3.23.23
- I had a fun time boarding Cedar River Trail. The weather is inviting me out again, I seriously manage my sleep again. Today was 20 minutes late because my body desperately needed sleep. I had a really good workout yesterday. My arms were so raw. It felt good. I love the feeling of working out, I’m getting bigger each and every day :)
- I’m excited to see John Wick 4. I really enjoyed the third one and this movie is much longer and has more action.
-There’s still more time to hang out with Dad but he is still sick with the flu so it’s a little hard.
- Let’s go ahead and try to get as much editing done for the wedding photos. I have to deliver it by Tuesday before I leave for the Philippines. Two hours of editing and one league game break. I got this :)

3.24.23
- My bed is a trap. I swear every time I lay in it, I get baited into falling asleep. While I did get to watch a super cool action film, I need to focus my efforts on the wedding photos. It’s of the highest importance.
- I got my date tomorrow. I really hope my health improves until then. The big one was my nasty cough and my running nose. It feels like it got worse but I hope some good medicine and rest get rid of it. I’m hoping it goes well.

3.27.23
- Philippines in two days. I have so much to do beforehand. The biggest time investment is completing the wedding photos. I deserve this for procrastinating so hard, but I know I can get them done by Tuesday night.
- I finally got a chance to meet Lindset, She’s such a fun little package. She’s got the same energy as me and I love she’s a weird little gamer like me. I don’t want to gush too hard but I have a good feeling about her, more so than others. I caught her saying she’s taking dating a lot more seriously.

3.28.23
- I caught myself smiling so hard on the way to Seattle. I was listening to some vibey new music and I was giddy to see Lindsey again. I'm so excited to enjoy the next couple of hours just basking in my happiness.
- Hanging out with Lindsey feels like being with an old friend. It’s crazy how much our personalities mesh well together. She’s smart, weird and funny. A perfect trifecta.
- I am glad that she told me that I was being too mean for her. I have to slow it down and learn how to be sweet with her. I don’t realize how mean I can be and how consistent I can apply the pressure. She mentioned she hates dirty, crude jokes. It’s important to keep that in mind.
- I got to take her off to a little platform by Kerry Park and kiss her. She puckers her lips so tight when she kisses. I guess it’s to prevent transmission, I still feel bad about that. I hope she doesn’t get suck.
- It feels nice to have someone to be affectionate to be around. I really like her blonde and pink hair. She’s like a real-life Marin. Also, another thing I really dig is her voice. It’s so pretty and cute. Can’t wait to spend more time with her after the break. She’s a huge goofball like me. I just have to treat her better and tone down the snarky sarcastic tone. I should treat her like I want to be treated. Especially if I want to pursue a relationship with her.
- Today’s my last day to wrap things up in America. The wedding photos are the priority for sure, then packing my clothes for the trip. I’ll most likely stay really late at night to finish the set but' that’s okay.

3.31.21
- I didn’t realize how brutal international travel can be. These long flights and long layovers definitely add up. Ready to finally sit down and properly rest.
- It’s definitely exciting being here, I can’t wait to take photos of the city and roam around with Lawrence. Different vibe now that we are older. We can actually explore for once.
- I find myself missing Lindsey strangely, I really enjoy her company and I want to get back in it, Good things will have to wait it seems but again I have a good feeling she might be my next girlfriend.