4.1.23
- Seeing so much family is astonishing. I feel the love from so many avenues. Turns out Tagalog is paying off even though I know so little.
- I got to ride a motorcycle for a little bit. I forgot how fun those things are. My mom’s land is so pretty. Definitely want to come back with my camera.
- Driving in the Philippines is insane, I swear we were passing people by mere inches. I could never. Crazy as shit.
- It’s so good to see my Dad unwind and thrive. So happy that he is back home after all these years.
- Definitely want to get matching tattoos with my brother while I am here. Good times.

4.2.23
- Pretty eventful day with the family. It’s so crazy how much family I have here in the philippines. I got to ride a carabou, those things are so big and kind. Literally let me hop on and off so gently.
- Driving in the Philippines is insane, the margin of error of hitting someone is essentially inches Our driver was a boss and did a good job keeping us moving at a good pace.
- I got some really good photos albeit it seemed like I was taking pot shots but they were strategic. I got some good photos of the family and some sick shots of cruising through the city.
- It’s crazy how blended nature is integrated with the settlments. Guess that I am very vlessed with my quality of life back at home. There was a couple structures that I saw that felt like the perfect synergy.
- Overall I feel really good about hte trip, pretty eventful with loads of good natured people. 10/10.

4.3.23
- Settling into life here, even though it’s a priviledged lifestyle. Everthing is so cheap here, it’s insane. The taxi rides are like 5$, it’s really nice. The sheer currency difference makes it hard to ball park prices, I picked up some really nice peieces at H&M. Definitely looking forwad to the creating some fun outfits back home.
- It’s still bizzard to me how often I think about Lindset. I keep imagining my future with her and there’s nothing in my mind that hinders miking her my GF in my life. I’m so luck to have found the courage to get up to talk to her at the bar.
- For now it’s time to make the best of this trip and make some meories, like watching Elsa and my mom randomly dancing in the street. So wholesome :)

4.4.23
- I am really happy. Genuinely. So many good things are happening to me and I have my life planned out so well. I also have Lindset waiting for me in the States. I had such an awesome day with my brother, we got matching tatoos, got amazing massages (Lo got some asshole swipes lmao_, picked up a good motorcucle jacket and some plusies. Honestly life is so good. I’m so full of love and joy. Such an upswing for me right now. I’m just straight vibing, loving life so hard. This is great.

4.5.23
- Another day in paradise. Saw a fun retirement partym so cute to see another generation of children enjoying life and swimming around. So fun to see mom let go and participate in games. Caught so many moments of her laughing. Very wholsome to see everyone enjoying themselves.
- I ended up getting another tattoo, it ended up looking so fucking good. I’m so happy for my pikachu tattoo, I was always so obssessed with Pikachu as a child. i got to bond with Junarie over some random and I got her good with that dog anus picture. Overall had a love steak of days,

4.6.23
- Each day keeps leveing up, Got to hang out with extended family at a really cool adventure park in Dihalayan Extreme Park. Lawrence go to do all the rides there. So much fun. Honestly the longest zipline was so epic. Zipping past forest at such high speeds with my brother next to me was the highlight of the trip. The quiet moments were fun too, just enjoying company and cracking jokes with old souls. I felt like I got really close with Jezreal and his wife Kim. It’s so thrilling to see how natural our conversations flows. I have a lot of respect for his spirital leadership and how knowledgeable he is on so many differently topics. I can see how intelligent our family is as a whole. Truly, I am going to miss having such warm and coureous souls around.

4.8.23
- Currently in the air flying to Manila. My Philippines trip has comes to its conclusion. Honestly really excited to come back to the US. Hot showers and back to my gaming rig. I’m also excited to continue my Lindsey saga. Also having agency to do things on my own terms again. Being able to drive anywhere I want.
- Overall, this trip really gave me persepctive on how priviledge I am in the US. Seeing all those poor loving gconditions made me feel so quilty on how nice my upbringing was in compariosn. However, despite all of that, it’s so cool to see the hospitality my amily has extended to us. Truly, I am so lucky.
- I think the best moment was seeing mom and dad really let loose and enjoy themselves. As they should.
- Now that I’m back home, it’s time to cintue working on myself and invest into my body and my future. I really hope i get into the University of Puget Sound.

4.10.23
- Finally back in WA. The travel on the way wasn’t as bad as going there fortunately. I got to watching Nope with my brother on the airplane which was a fantastic film about an alien. The ending arc was so exhilarting and the final act of taking a picture was so satisdying.
- It feels good to be back in WA. Everything is so coool and clean in comparioson. It’s nice to be back and be familiar with the area. Having the autonomy to drive anything I want is a huge plus.
- Now that I’m back, it’s time to prusue Linset but she texts on a irratic page. Hopefully I can set up a date this week. It would be good to see her again.
- I really want to go longboarding but it seems like it’s going to rain for the entire week this week. I just want tot test out my new motorcycle jacket.
- Currently feeling the uneasiness of Lindsey not texting back. I know she’s busy but man I hate the feeling of having a lot of emotional weight attached to her. Let’s be patient
- I really want that red helmet but getting those car repairs is much more more important. I need to get it in order before Mom gets back from the Philippines.

4.11.23
- Linsset ended up finding someone else. My streak of hyping up women in my mind continues. The timing was very unfortunate with me leaving but I guess it wasn’t meant to be. I have to keep my roster constantly evolving or I’ll get dissapointed. This rejection didn’t hurt too bad though. I’ve developed a pretty thick skin.
- Back to ground zero again. But I’m so used to it so I can bask in the glory of self improvement. It’s always been a net positive return investing into my body. I only have four months to truly focus on my fitness before I get overwhlemed with grad school and my currently jon. However, I am super excited about daying prospects and being the the learning state agin. It’s going to be a beautiful chapter in my life :)
- I want to be in my best shape of my life by my JKorea trip. Those goals are attainable. I just have to commit. To build on that I’m implmenting a No League Wednesday to my work week. As a slmall step to achieve better habits. Let’s continue to grind.

4.12.23

• I should have just woken up earlier. Had to lie about my tardiness and yes they bit the bait but it doesn’t not feel good. I can’t pull this off as a licensed therapist.
  - There is a good chance I hear news about the outcome of my grad school application tomorrow. This will heavily affect the trajector of my life. I have a good feeling that I’m going to get accepted but life has thrown cruve balls at me before. I’ll be ready for anything..
  - Honestly really excited for longboarding season. I should get all my gear for it by next week. Having armor on my hinge joints and a sick red helmet is going to be a sick look. Also can’t wait to take some friends to go skating around having fun :)

4.13.23
- This morning I knocked over my neighbor’s trash bin over rushing to work today. I really hope no ones saw and that someone will fix it upright before the trash vehicle gets there. Some negative karma is coming my way I bet.
- Super bummed out about the Lindset thing. I think ghosting her for two days over the weekend was the nail in the coffin. I’m so stupid for doing that but if she was into me she would of kept going. But lets not do that in the future. I dropped the ball on this one but this will open up new doors for me. She was fun to get to know.
- I skipped the gym for thr second time this week. I justified it because I went longboarding earlier that day. It brought me outside so it’s a step in the right direction. I think the key to consistency is going right after school. That helps the most and I feel accomplished early in the day.
- Atleast this time I didnt cave and play League yesterday. I think another platform I need to monitor is Tiktok. I often waste a lot of time there mindlessly scrolling. It’s entertaining but doesn’t really add value into my life.

4.14.23

• Spend the whole day spring cleaning. Completely changging the layout of my whole room. There’s a lot more space and I took off the annoying bars at the top. The room definitely feels a lot more function now. I needed a chance of pace. I figured in i’m going to be living here for another two years lets make the room livable.

- I spend a lot of money on new stuff. Got a rug and a new lamp. Also got some cloudwheels since my tires are fucked up. Who knew changing a flay tire could take so long.
- I 100% regreat sleeping late last night. I’m so tired right now. Definitely need to get good rest tonight :/ It’s such a pain getting through this period.
- Who knew replacing a tire is so god damn ocmplicated. I’m glad Kobaine is offering to help because I’m way stumped on how to correct the lugnut issue.

4.17.23
- Had a restful weekend. Being able to catch up on sleep is always a good feeling. Saturday night was really fun. The dancing at STill Liquor was top notch. THe music was easy to dance to and the cibes were crazy fun. Seeing Virmel go hard was a sight to see. It was a good time catching up with everyone pregram through the truck ride back home. It was funny seeing David’s and Sarah’s banter. I actually got a lot of bonding with Kevin. His injury is easy to sympathize with. Especially with his girl leaving him after the month. EEspecially with his girl leaving him after the injury.
- I still think about Lindsey, but ultimately just bad timing. It was a good experience because I have to realize that my sarcasm can be polarizing and that it’s better to be sweeter in most cases. Also the fact I didn’t text her back for two days over the weekend. But she probably met a better match so all power to her. She gave me a lot of happy feel good feelings so I am thankful.
- Smiling listening to Sad Disco on the way to see her with my stomach full of butterflies was one of the best feelings I’ve had so far in 2023.
- Getting my new pulleys and bushings todau. It’ss be nice to have a working explorer once again. The performance should be much better. Excited.

4.18.23
- Yesterday felt like the most normal day back in America. That late night MJ sehesh bled into my work morning and man that was anxiety filled. Desides that it was overall a good day at work. It’s so chill I love it. I got four wins ain a row in League and got promoted. Amazing what you can do with a non-troll team.
- I ended up upgrading my backfire tires as well. That’s a complete overhaul for both my boards. Very excited to feel the difference for both baords. It’s a lot of moeny but I’m happy with the investments.
0 I think i’ll end up saving the rest of the settlement money and go with no major purchase for the rest of April. I basically upgraded all the aspects of the longboarding experience. Now it’s time to enjoy the fruits of my labor.
- Spending money is so easy. I need to keep track of what I have spend. Just to kee record.
- I find out in two days if I get into the UPS grad program. I’m really hoping iI get in. It would set up my whole life. It will be expensive but if I become an establised therapist, I’ll be reaping in a nice fat paybeck to live on my own.
- I realize that I am absolutely a meterial boy. This is somethign that I realize i Need help with. I am living beyong my means.
- Heavily investing into longboarding this ummer. So excited to push my limits and learn how to go faster and corve corners better. Want to fully utilize the good weather.
- I’m so happy I have so many fiends with longboards. I definitely want to have that Carbon river picnic. I’ll have to set it all up but should be great.

4.19.23
- Signed up for 3 months of training. It’s time to recomp my body in the time for summer! I weighed 170lbs, the largest wieght I’ve had in a long time. I was snacking and eating bad food for too long. Gotta pivot and start focusing on fat loss.
- Over the last two weeks, I bought 1,100 in longabording grar. That’s the price of a brand new board. But this is my investment to be safe and challenge myself to ride faster and for my enjoyment of the cruise.
0 I got to sit down and find a new exercise regime planning which days I need to hit the game. Wednesday are my HIIT workouts every week so I have to plan around that.

4.20.23
- Happy 4/20. Ryan and Brian are coming to WA today. Probably won’t join for KBBQ but plan on hangout out afterwards. Don’t know them too well but hopefully this chances things.
- I find out today if I got into the grad program at UPS. I’m super excited to see what the outcome is going to look like. I have to be prepared for both outcomes btu I feel like i have a high chance of getting in!
- I think I got waitlisted but I sent an email to the admissions officer to clarify my situation. Great another level of uncertainty but atleast I didn’t get rejected. My dream is still alive and I have to keep my faith. If i dont get in, my life is still good regardless.

4.24.23
- had a pretty chill and restful weekend. I became soft of a homebody. It was a good choicesince I was so bummed out from the UPS grad school decision. I was so hopefuly about getting in that relist hit that everything won’t go my way. Hopefully I get in through proxy but I can’t count on it. I am not sure on what to do next but I have to cover my opttions by applying to some online school.
- I’m going to need a good rest tonnight to make it through the day tomorrow. I am way too tired for this shit. ) got through the hump but man that was rough.
- Jesus. I hit 6,000 dollars in credit card debt. That’s the highest I’ve ever got. To be fair I know the settlement money was coming in but the money barely covered it. It would be nice to have a financial reset and start from scratch again :)

4.25.23
- I got some good sleep but I can’t make a habit of waking up at 7:00am. I have to setup my loud alarm at 6:50am as a final bell to get my ass out of bed. Let’s try salvaging my always late reuputation.
- Still thinking about creating some youtube videos over the summer. I really like the idea that you have to crate atleast 100 videos before you start accruing views.

• I got to start investing into my photography socials and webiste on weekends. There’s is a lot of outdated information there.
  

4.26.23
- I like the two alarm system but I keep finding myself falling back asleep again. I messed up today but I ended up being 30 minutes late. Still bad it’s progress.
- I’m going to have a lot of free time today after my work out. I can actually sit down and complete some items.
- I tend to have a bad habit of staying up late at night doing random BS on my phone. I usually end up oreating on 6 hours of sleep most days. It’s rough

4.27.23
- Today when I get some is going to have to be a cleaning day. I also have to sit down and complete the entire training. I won’t be able to play until it’s fully finished.
- I am looking forward to the longboard ride later today. I can finally use my longboard after all the upgrades. It will be a nice afternoon cruise around the late.
- I got a date on Sunday. She hasn’t been fun to talk to but hopefully that chances when I meet her in person on Sunday. It does feel good to have someone in the pipline after the Linsey incident. I still feel like I lost a good one there. Ultimately, its her choice and I have to accept it. There are others.
- I still need to work on my sleep. I keep tabling things until 11;30pm which already nets me 6 1/2 hours of sleep. I really need 7.5 hours. Which means I need ot be in bed by 10:20 and asleep by 11:00pm at the latest. I’ll try my best to go to bed early yoday.
- I broke my bed frame and ordered a new one. It’s funny because my bed is barely handing on with a coerner dipping.
- Overall I am starting to feel good. things are falling into place and suprisingly photo gigs are falling into my lap really easily. Having free time and having photography as my second gig has been great.

4.28.23
0 I had a strange multidiminensional dream today. I was so surprised that I cried in my dream. The emotions felt so real. Never felt that emotional in a long time. I woke up from the dream feeling refreshed for once.
- Went on a longboarding trip yesterday and it was such a fun little ride. The tynee felt really smooth but as Kobaine pointed out the belt is loose and needs to be tighted to secure the belt to the wheels for a stable braking experience. I think I can get it fixed some some belts I ordered earlier. I just have to loop them on and move the motors back.
- Been feeling pretty good lately. It feels time goes too fast ina good way. really enjoy the pace and there’s always things to work on. I’ve been tabling a lot of my photography off to the summer and that’s where a lot of profress is going to take place.
- I am sitting firest in the waitlist. My chances of getting in only takes one person to deny their offer letter. I’ll find out on May 2nd if someone has decided not to go. I have to be fully prepared for a rejection. Be ready for online